The
Red Pumps
by Katifenia Zafiriadou
Title
of the original: Τα κόκκινα γοβάκια
Tucked
away in a brown closet, which gave off a slight mildewed odor and was
scribbled in blue ink with old messages such as Aris,
I love you, Nico, on
its walls, the red pumps size nine were waiting to be worn.
In
an old apartment, where lovemaking gasps and sighs from the neighbors
can be heard accompanied by the gurgle of the drainage and the yells
of rows, a hand opens the closet leaf and takes out the red pumps. It
is the hand of a woman who has begun to feel the tear and wear of
time: incipient wrinkles, cellulitis, overweight, hair dyed blond in
an attempt of rejuvenation. She is wearing jeans and a tight little
outfit over it in order to make her succulent bosom appear even
larger.
She
gets hold of her pumps, puts them on her feet, the toe-nails painted
deep pink, and stands in front of the mirror starting her daily
ritual of putting on cheap cosmetics: first the powder, then the
intense rouge, green eye-shade, mascara and plenty eyeliner for an
intense look and finally lipstick. The pumps seem to watch her
putting on slowly her make up.
She
opens the front door and crosses the corridor to get out into the
street. The street is where in summer your clothes stick to your
sweated body, the neighbors hang around to breathe some fresh air and
watch the passers-by – their only diversion as the joys of the sea
is a luxury to them.
She
goes and sits down on a bench munching sunflower seeds, shuffles
around her feet in her red pumps looking forward to something
interesting. She makes out the indistinct figure of a young man. He
approaches her. They cross their looks. His is intense, scorching
her. She starts up. Is he going to stay? The young man catches her
eye and stares back seductively in all his carnal arrogance. He
passes by indifferently and stands further on. He slowly circles
around her like a flying moth around a source of light. The woman
gets excited. Will he do something? She is unable to express her
feelings; one of her pumps remains stuck in the dirt with its front
pointed at him. The young man gets nearer. He sits next to her. Her
breathing grows faster and there is a knot in her stomach. The red
pumps sense the blood flowing faster in the veins of her toes and
they feel her pulse in the vein of her ankle. The two exchange
scrutinizing glances which lock playfully for a moment in an
unexpected promise. Then like two frightened birds they quickly turn
their eyes elsewhere, but they meet again. They timidly pause. The
words are stuck in their throats like a baby to be presently born.
What if? … The first word leaps out and the man in all readiness
catches it in the air like a relay and hands it back. Then an
inchoate dialogue follows resembling a wobbling stilts-walker
vulnerable to a false step. And this dialogue is slowly built up
around them like a spider web and then goes on constructively. The
atmosphere is sensually charged. They presently find an excuse and
they go up to her house.
They
go up the stairs one by one in a delay of expectation. Tock – tock
– tock the pumps sound on the cheap mosaic. Every knock becomes a
touch, a palpitating feel of the heart. Then their intercourse is
rhythmic; slow at the beginning but swift and violent afterwards.
Their bodies match despite their incongruity. Gasps of pleasure are
heard; a bite on the neck is felt with a sound that penetrates the
deserted walls.
The
pumps, upside down in a corner, are their silent witnesses.
The
act is over. The young man must leave. The woman puts on the pumps
hurriedly and with a heavy heart sees the young man out. “Will you
come again?” The same happens the next day and the day after, but
after some time the young man never shows up again.
In
vain do the pumps look forward to him on the street bench. They
eagerly walk up and down on the sidewalk, looking left and right. The
woman has worn them for days. Then they are left at the bedside
during her short slumber. They feel the edge of her bed sheet and
taste of her agonizing dreams.
When
she finally gives up hope of seeing him again, the woman tosses the
pumps in a corner and begins to wail and sob for her bereavement that
makes her thoughtlessly seek warmth in someone’s embrace; for her
loneliness that beguiles her to the vicious circle of transient
pleasure; for the plunder of both body and soul; for the rejection;
for the loss of that relationship which eventually comes from the
mellowing of the bodies, the ripping off of pain and separation. She
must endure her poignant tears and sobbing all alone tonight silently
choking her screams: “Hey, you who are comfortably placed in life
ready to pelt me with stones. Do you perhaps know what lies behind my
misshapen flesh?”
She
stands up and looks at her weary face in the mirror. Her hair has
begun to turn white at the roots. Her wrinkles show deeper. She goes
to the wardrobe, opens one leaf and inspects its contents. Then she
starts silently to doff her clothes and hang them slowly on plastic
hangers.
The
red pumps have been left discarded in a corner of the room gathering
dust.
Katifenia
Zafiriadou was born in Thessloniki in 1969. She is a graduate of
English Language and Literature from the Aristotelian University of
Thessaloniki. She has also a post graduate degree in Linguistics from
the same University. Her works have been published by different
magazines. Her brochure The
Matchbox
has been published in 2005 and Greek
Desert Flowers in
2008 by Loxias Edition.
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